little remi......

cute senior girl.....













What a cute fun girl.........

baseball......

Baseball is back in full swing and we are busy. Jaden is playing on a couple of different baseball teams and is playing four or five games a week plus practice. He is also playing on a borderleague basketball team that will be ending soon and he has had a lot of fun playing on this team. Life is busy but great......

what a cute little dude.......

I guess I can officially call myself a blogger. It has been exactly two years ago that I started this blog and posted my first picture of my sweet baby boy. Lately I feel like I really want to use this blog as a journal and looking back at the last two years it really does feel like a journal. There are so many things that I would have missed if I hadn't been posting here. I have been laying in bed the last few nights and just wanting to get on computer and write about my life and my sweet children. The last few weeks I have been kind of emotional, not sad emotional whatever that means. The smallest things make me think and remember things. Every week when the Biggest Loser comes on Jaden always says are you going to cry tonight mom. I am not a cryer but for some reason this show triggers something in me that makes me cry. Maybe it's the fact the people are given themselves the biggest chance at a better life. Tonight, our high school team played baseball and I went down to the game, because if there is a baseball game somewhere you better believe I will be there. Sitting there I glanced over and I seen an older man that so much reminded me of my grandpa, he was just sitting there by himself enjoying the nice weather and watching the game. I recognize him as going to alot of sporting events and once again I found myself getting teary-eyed. I sometimes realize how much I miss my family and the fact that I don't get to see my dear grandma very often. I then sat right down next to him and had a good chat and it made me feel better. Lately I have been looking at my children and once again getting emotional because they are growing up so fast and I want to push pause and keep them as they are. It's getting late and know I am babbling, just a few things I want to get off my chest. If I keep rambling like this I will probably have to go private.

In the eyes of a child....there is joy, there is laughter....there is hope, there is trust, a chance to shape the future. I love my little man's shiny, happy eyes.

happy.....

Being happy doesn't mean that everything's perfect.....it just means that you have decided to see beyond the imperfections.

I believe that happiness is a state of mind, as I look around this crazy world and at everything that is going on with the economy, the government, the disasters in so many areas of the world I, in my own little place feel happy despite all the horrible things that can bring us down. A few years ago I struggled with a state of happiness, I come from a long line of worriers and my personality was one of a perfectionist. In my mind I wanted everything around me to be perfect. As we all know that does not exist and the more you focus on that the worse it gets. My house was perfectly clean all the time, my oldest son did not know what dirt was until he was 5 years old. I ran 50 miles a week and watched everything that I ate. I soon found out that living like this does not bring happiness to anyone around you. I struggled with anxiety because I always felt like I was a little short of what I wanted to be. As I have gotten older I can honestly say I am happy with what I have, I love being not so OCD (some of that will never go away). I love being a mother, wife, baseball fan, cartoon watcher, stroller runner, photographer, sister to my best friends and most of all I love that I am HAPPY....

He is so stinkin' cute, I just love him and his crazy personality. For those of you out there who have young children you will relate well to this post. It really sucks for parents when your kids get on a weird schedule, especially when it comes to bedtime. Jaxen, don't get me wrong really likes to sleep but on his time. The last three weeks he has been staying up until 1 or 2 in the morning just laying around in the bed, watching a little wubzy, and eating chips (or bips as he calls them). It really hasn' t bothered me to much because I stay up that late anyway and he really doesn't bother me, however last night he was super tired but couldn't quite get to sleep and to make matter worse he spotted Jaden's easter basket that suprisingly still had a half-eaten box of milk duds. He wanted one which wasn't a big deal, it was about midnight and thought maybe if I gave him a couple he would forget about it and go to sleep. One milk dud led to another (we all know how that goes, that's why I go to the movies) and pretty soon there was only a couple left. I could feel a real melt-down coming on and so the last few milk duds I broke in half and tried to salvage what was left. He ate the last one and wanted more, I showed him the box and he was ticked. Daddy goes to work really early in the morning(sometimes going to work as I am going to bed) so I frantically went through the easter basket hoping that somehow, somewhere there would be a couple milk duds that had fallen in the bottom. Nothing at this point he was crying loud and I was wishing that I wouldn't have helped myself to couple before he spotted them. Needless to say at 1a.m. in the morning my cute little two year old fell asleep with a 1 foot chocolate easter bunny hanging out of his mouth, it was the only thing that would keep him quite, and quite frankly I have had it with his late nights......spoiled I don't think so just loved....

sweet baby boy....

cute family.....

monkey.....

kate was done with pictures.....ava wanted to play monkey

little T....

He is the tannest baby that I have ever seen. He is so tan that I accused my little sis of using that self-tanner crap on him. I guess he was just blessed with awesome dark skin .
(courtesy of dad and mom)

love these girls....


and the rest of the family.....i have about decided that i have the cutest nieces and nephews..

I never asked to be a PRINCESS.....I just am.


She's a cutie......

fun easter weekend....




We had a great easter weekend. We spent most of the spring break out of town but surprisingly enough we did not play sports at all. Our baseball team decided to take a holiday off and our basketball games got cancelled. I cannot remember the last time we had a holiday to just relax and do whatever we want. We had a great time just hanging out with family, taking a few pictures, having a picnic at the park, taking some good long runs and just having a good time. I must have the best family ever, they are so much fun to be around and Jaxen loves hanging around with Jo Jo, everywhere we went he wondered where Jo Jo was. I have lots of pictures to post just haven't had a lot of time so for those of you waiting for me just hold tight, I heard a big storm is moving in so maybe I will get something done on my computer....HAPPY EASTER