The Blacks

 {UTAH VALLEY UNIVERSITY 2016....} and just like that the high school days are over, the constructions days are over for now and you are moving on to a new chapter in your life. There are visual reminders of you everywhere. I mean I know it's just school and eventually this was going to happen. I realize that...it's just that I miss you desperately. Shoes by the back door, your little white ranger cruizen up the road with your music blaring, your empty bedroom. It takes me back to the days the days of your childhood. I have constantly reminisced this week....the first week of your college career out of town...PROVO.

I worry so much about you....are you navigating things without me there? The same worry comes with pride...pride that you are spreading your wings and growing in new ways...ways that need to happen without me there.

The hardest part about motherhood is for me has been the letting go. It is so hard for me to let go of you without taking a piece of my heart with you. Hard for me to miss moments with you. But sometimes loving someone is doing something hard, the best thing for them - even if it hurts me. I KNOW it's best in my heart but by dang it doesn't make my struggle any less hard.

Reminding myself daily that this is a BLESSING to have the opportunity to watch you grow and move through stages of your life. It's a blessing to watch our kiddos gain their independence and mature.

I love you more than you can imagine. Talking to you throughout your day...hearing your stories...reassuring you that you have made a awesome decision. These are the moments that I will forever hold near to my heart....so HURRY UP FRIDAY...and don't forgot a little piece of my heart left with you on AUGUST 21, 2016... so take care of it will you... as long as your living my baby you'll be. LOVE MOM...and yes a few tears and a headache occured while writing this post.